A couple nights ago I saw the strongest aurora or northern lights that I have ever seen. It was so bright that I could sit at my dining room table and watch the lights dance across the sky over the mountains. It was so mesmerizing and the only thing that tore me away from it was my pounding headache from lack of sleep!
Lately it feels like I'm pulled in so many directions, sometimes it is self-inflicted and sometimes it comes from my mother or other family member. My mother keeps telling me that I need to get the crib adjusted or the baby is going to fall out. I tell her that my husband has to do it to make sure that it is assembled correctly and she tells me that I need to tell him to do it. I feel like telling her to butt-out. Anyway, my parents have been here for four weeks and I think my husband is very worn from visitors. I understand since the same thing happened to me when his parents came for several weeks.
My four-year old has been becoming more and more frustrating. Nobody tells you about the terrible fours...it makes the terrible twos seem like a walk in the park. I know that a lot of his bad behavior is a result of life events this spring and summer, but at the same time he seems tired and I can't get him to nap anymore. If I try to get him to nap he always wakes the baby up with upteen questions.
Occasionally I bask in the glow above the fog but more often than not I'm doggedly struggling through sleepless nights. I feel sad about the loss of our family in the east and the struggles with our four-year old.
